It is His desire for you to be healthy. It is His desire that you will live a condemnation/fear/stress-free life. He wants to prosper you. He wants to promote you. He strongly desires that you will be at peace. He only wants the best for you.
You have to believe that, and put your faith in His faith that He will make these happen. Beloved, stop thinking that God would let you do it on your own. Don’t struggle anymore and don’t discourage yourself. Believe in His omnipotence and His faithfulness. All that you’re waiting for may not come instantly, but still, God will do it. In fact, He is working right now. Hold on and trust Him. What is impossible for man, God is able to do.