“I see you struggling to catch up to and to impress with others. The need to is overwhelming, I know. I feel it too, but there is nothing else to prove anymore, beloved. You and I— we are expected to rest in Christ’s finished work: that life He lived, the obedience He had, the sacrifice He made, and so much more. He did it all and now we are complete. Rest, breathe, focus on Him. He will live that completeness and wholeness out of each of us.”—Pam Carbungco, To You
“1. It is Christ who enables us to do what is right in all situations.
2. If we resolve to wholly trusting Him, that is enough.
3. Everyday, let’s remind ourselves that Jesus is our righteousness again and again.
4. God makes all things work together for our good. It’s going to be okay.
5. People will fail; God never does.”—Pam Carbungco, Today
“But this is not the last time. We will see her again. She was weird; she anticipated the end of the world because that meant seeing her Savior face to face. When she realized how life on earth is a mission and a story, she started looking at death only as a door to eternity. Not something to be afraid of, but a mere transition to the greater and more beautiful things. And maybe, when we think of her, let’s not think of her as gone. She had simply gone on first into the adventure that will never end, where one page will never be as beautiful as the next page.”—Pam Carbungco, Eulogy
Hello, beloved! How are you? I hope that all is going well with you.
I want to apologize for not posting here for days. As you well know, my third year in college have started last month. Requirements levelled up a notch and most of my time is spent doing them as well as I can. It’s great, actually, to see that God has not changed, His grace is still enough, no matter what ‘demand’ is placed upon His children. I am claiming that this semester is my best one yet.
Anyway, I think I can now post more often, what with the school installing a wifi connection in our dormitory. I still can’t answer messages, though (Again, sorry!!). I’ll come back to you guys during weekends. :)
I hope that all is well with you! Remember always that God is faithful to you and nothing will change that! You’re greatly blessed!
Maybe I should let go and forget all about the expectations that people set upon me. I am an eighteen-year-old girl who should cut herself some slack. I have to grow, I have to bloom, I have to recover, and I have to learn. I don’t always get it at first try, and I am not perfect. I am not that.
I get often get stuck with writer’s block while trying to complete papers that are due tomorrow. I often have to bite back my tongue just so I don’t hurt the other person; that does not change the hurt that is there, though. I often cry at night, tempted to give up on myself.
No. I am not perfect. I need to grow and I need to live life. I need to experience being human, because that’s how I know that I need Jesus Christ with me. That’s how I know why I can’t go on without Him. I can be all the human being that I want, but without His grace, I will not know what I should do with my stumbles and falls, my successes and joys. If He does not lead me, I will go in circles in life, following my whims or the ways of this world.
Yes, all of us are human. I am human and it’s beautiful. It is beautiful because His grace is the right light through which I see myself. My life.
“I find You during the sleepless nights, when the seconds seem to slip as quickly as deadlines come upon me. You are hope and strength and comfort in my solitude and You tell me that with You, I can do all things.
I find You when other people’s words sting much worse than they should, my heart, resolve or security cracking just a little. You hold me up, hold me together; I am reminded that who I am is everything I’ve been given in You.
I find You whenever I meet dead ends, the enormity of mountains and walls keeping me frozen in fear. You lift me up, make me soar, and see me through. The stars tremble in awe of Your majesty, and oh, how these mountains tremble because of You.
You find me in my highs and lows. You hold me through it all. I see and experience You not because I’ve earned it, but because You chose to be near. In the darkest or the brightest, I find You because You’ve always been there. With me.”—Pam Carbungco, Found
“My journal is filled with questions. I am learning that I can not only admit that I have questions about life and about myself, but I can also come to God and give them to Him, because He also holds the answers.”—Pam Carbungco
“We fight, but it is the fight of faith not of effort, for our God fights for us and therefore we have perfect peace. We work but it is not we who work, but God who works in us and through us, and therefore we rest. We work as the instrument works in the hands of the skillful workman.”—Hannah Withall Smith (via godsradicaldaughter)
Even when things are rough, I refuse to be overwhelmed by fear. I refuse to be overcome by the Enemy. My Father's love is stronger. His grace is unshakable. I know that what I'm experiencing now are all empty threats. My God is still more than able.
I haven’t been on Tumblr a lot at all lately; I apologize for that. I was caught up with the preparations for my coming back to school and other issues. Now that the first week of classes is over, thankfully, I can post again as often as I could. :) I missed Tumblr a lot. I missed you guys a lot.
Anyway, school has been better than I had been expecting. Everyday, I learn a lot from talking to people, listening to my professors, or by just observing. I always remind myself to see and taste God’s goodness to me in every moment, and I learn from it. Every day is a reminder that I stand only on the solid foundation of His love, that I move by His power, and I function because of His grace.
This semester is not going to be simple and easy. There will be stepping out of comfort zones, meeting challenges, and venturing into new levels, but God’s got me. We are both in this together. I know that He is the reason why I am in university at all, and I know that He finishes what He started.
I believe that it’s the same with you. I may be in university, and you may be at home or work or anywhere at all, but one thing’s the same, beloved: We all have the God of the Universe for us, with us, and in us. That’s what matters.
My grades. They are definitely much, much more than what I deserved, expected and worked for. This could only be grace.
My schedule for this semester. I’ve been given slots to the subjects I need to take. Also, I have more free time, which I did not have last semester.
His love for me and my family.
His on-time and always sufficient provisions.
The rain tonight.
The refuge that I have in Him.
The future He has secured for me.
I had been worrying about many things during the start of this vacation, and now Papa Daddy is making me realize that He had it all together right from the start. He had been making ways for me from the beginning. I’m so amazed.
“Still, give thanks to God, for He is not a God who does things randomly. In every situation, He acts accordingly to promote you and bring you to a ‘better good.’ He does not leave you stuck in your troubles.”—Pam Carbungco, old journal entry
“Remember that God will never promise anything that He is not able to do. He would not have started His good work in you if He will not finish it. Your God is good and faithful. He is the very definition of consistency. You may be believing in things that you cannot see, but because this faith is anchored in Him, it will surely bear fruit, beloved.”—Pam Carbungco, Because it is in Him
“He is not just above
nor down below.
God is more
than just someone
who would swoop down
(so you can feel Him)
when He feels like it.
No, He is
more than anything else,
While you walk and speak,
sleep and sing,
cry and pray
He is close to you.
His presence stays
with you, the one
He loves.”—Pam Carbungco, Even when it does not feel this way
I have a question regarding music. How do you feel about it? With the whole conspiracy of there being the illuminati who can we trust to put in our ears?
Hello, beloved! I really do not know the artists we can specifically trust to put in our ears, but we can trust and rely on the Holy Spirit in making those kinds of decisions. He is our Counselor who teaches us all things. He knows the thoughts of our Father and relays it to us. Because of Him, we gave the Mind of Christ. Trust in Him for the discernment and wisdom for all that you need to listen to, beloved.
This is what I believe also when it comes to the books that I read and people I listen to. :) You’re greatly blessed!
God is indeed good! He helped me. Surely, He never leaves us. Wooh! I'm so so happy today because I can go back to school. After 2 months of suffering and finding someone to finance my needs, He gave me a source and...tada! I am jumping for joy!!!
Ahh! This is great news! Thanks for sharing this, beloved! God is indeed faithful! You’re greatly blessed! Have fun at school!
Hey. I have a question regarding heaven and hell. If the bible says that sinners go to hell and we're all sinners, do we all go to hell? I know that those who accept Christ as their Lord and savior are saved but I still have an unclear understanding
Hello, beloved! Yes, we are all sinners but Christ paid the penalty for all of our sins. We have been redeemed, forgiven, set free and ransomed by Him. It’s all because of grace.
However, God, because He loves us, will not force into us this gift. He allows us a choice to accept Him in faith or not. Those who choose to accept Christ and believe are saved, beloved. (You can read more by clicking the ‘This is for you’ link at the side of my blog.)
I know that this is not too comprehensive. But I’ll add more into this once I log in my laptop. Hope you can wait. :) You’re greatly blessed!